continuing my "
old kissing story, new characters" ;) New 10 lines.
The tree thing was yesterday;
today is a different day.
i am listening to music in my room
wondering where is my future groom -
he hasn't called me yet
and i haven't stayed that late in bed.
suddenly the doorbell rings
and makes me think
'who could that be?'
i run to get it and what do i see?
check back soon for the next 10 lines...totally gonna be RATED R.
My life suddenly took a completely different course. Justin and I didn’t talk to each other anymore and pretended we never knew about the other’s existence. He would spend the breaks between classes with Kristen, after school he would go out with her, basically he spent all his free time trying to eat her tongue. And I… I would go out with my bestie, Matt and Taylor. Since Justin was spending his time with Kristen, Taylor “took his place”. You would expect things to be intense but it was just the opposite – we were having a lot of fun with Tay as a member of our group. But as much fun as it would be and as much as I would smile and laugh, I would still miss Justin.
Christmas was on its way and my bestie and I had come up with a great play for the Christmas Concert at school. Everything was happening at the speed of light and I couldn’t wait for Christmas to come. One of the best things to be performing in the concert, was that we were missing classes so we could rehearse. Not that we ever had a real rehearsal. What I mean is that almost every time we would change our lines and the guys who participated in the play, would not be there.
21st of December – the day of the Christmas Concert. I was nervous, excited and most of all, smiling widely, who knows why.
- Someone’s nervously happy! – Taylor screamed from behind me.
- Gosh, Taylor! Stop freaking me out like that! You’ll give me a heart attack.
- Don’t worry, it will go great. – he said and hugged me.
- It better go great! And you better not drop me. – the play ended with Taylor holding me up bridal style and taking me backstage and I didn’t want to end up with broken bones, though I trusted Taylor and his muscles.
- I would try not to, - he said as there was a possibility he would drop me so I punched him – okay okay! I won’t drop you, I promise.
It was almost time for our play and one of the guys was missing. GRR! What’s more, his brother wanted to go search for him and I couldn’t risk them both missing! I was freaking out…really freaking out on the inside, but on the outside I was trying really hard to stay calm. Eventually, everyone showed up JUST on time and we went on stage.
The whole thing went more than great! The audience laughed at almost every word we said. If I forgot to mention earlier, our play was more of a sketch. Anyways, I was so happy that the they were loving us that it was hard for me to stay in character but I managed to. After my bestie did her part and went backstage with two of the guys, it was time for Taylor to pick me up bridal style. He came over and as he started picking me up, the crowd went ow-ing, laughing, clapping their hands, everything positive you can think of! Taylor started walking backstage with me in his hands when I saw Justin in the audience and the most cruel idea came to my mind. I said to Taylor “Let Granny kiss you!” (I was playing an old grandma) and he did. I kissed his cheek and he then took me backstage.
Afterwards we went to change our clothes and join the audience to watch the rest of the show. Right after we did it, 3 girls went on stage to sing “All I Want For Christmas Is You”. My bestie and I loved the song so we started dancing, singing and laughing. As we were having fun, I accidently saw Justin. The girls on stage were now singing “All I want for Christmas is yoo-o-o-ou baby” and blah blah, when Justin looked at me, and I looked away. While the the girls were still singing the song I would pretend to be looking for someone in the crowd, just to see Justin starring at me. It was awkward, yet I loved it. Why was he starring at me? I wanted to look into his eyes so badly but couldn’t. Something was holding me back. Was I too shy to do it? Or what? And while I was trying to figure out what to do, the song was over. I finally had the courage to look at Justin…to see him kissing Kristen. GREAT!
I watched the rest of the show then went with Tay, Matt and Mousie to this café nearby to celebrate. But it seemed like the rest of the school had the same idea. Anyways, we found ourselves a table, sat and ordered. We were laughing loud and I was starting to forget about Justin, as guess who walked in the café! Justin and Kristen…hand in hand! I immediately crossed my fingers, praying they don’t see us but they did. Justin and Kristen were now walking towards us. JUST PEACHY!
- Yo, what’s up? Mind if we join you? – Justin greeted.
- No, man. Come sit! Where have you been, bro? – Matt greeted back.
- You know, hanging with my girl. So what ‘cha doing people? – seems like Justin was perfectly happy with Kristen. “Maybe he wasn’t looking at me at the concert and I was just imagining things,” I thought.
- Talking about the concert. My dolls did amazing! – I loved when Matt called us “his dolls”. He was like a brother to me.
- I absolutely agree. Congratulations, girls. – Kristen said, smiling widely, - Don’t you think they did amazing, Justy?
- Yeah, Justy. What do you think? – Mousie laughed her head off while calling him Justy.
- Don’t mess with me, mouse but yes, you two were incredible. – now he was totally looking at me and I was looking at him. SOMEONE PLEASE CUT THIS SCENE. Finally, I managed to break the stare and look away.
The rest of the time we spent in the café went like: guys talking to guys, girls talking to girls. Talking to Kristen was rather pleasant, to be honest. Don’t get me wrong – I don’t hate her. I actually like her and think she’s a really beautiful girl. What I disagree with is Justin using her to make me jealous. I’m not trying to sound “I’m a Barbie girl and guys love only me” but if we have to look at things realistic I’m right.
- I’ll be going, my big bro’s back in town and I should be home earlier. – Taylor said.
- Oh, wait then. I don’t want to be going home by myself. If you don’t mind, I… - but Taylor wouldn’t let me finish.
- Of course I don’t mind! Come on, I’ll walk you home.
- Bye. – Tay and I said to the others and started walking towards the door.
Of course, before we walked away I couldn’t miss seeing Justin’s look. I loved when he had “jealousy” written all over his face. Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating a little, but seriously, he WAS jealous.
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James and I kissing on a tree.
He has his arms around me
and gently slides his tongue in me;
he makes me feel like never before
and I scream in silence for more..
I climb on top of him -
place kisses on his neck;
nicle on his ear.
This is not just another peck,
it is more like a 'make out cheque'.
First ever RATED R masterpiece I have written!
Dedicated to James...as you can see.
I really hope he doesn't stop talking to me for these lines :D
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Last week I only went to school on Tuesday - Monday was a day off and I was really sick so on Wednesday my Mom took me to the hospital and my doctor said I should stay home for the needed treatment:) This really affected me in a good way! Then Friday, the weekend and Monday were holidays so no school. So...today was like a Monday to me :D Surprisingly, it was an amazing day! Why?
I woke up at 6AM, feeling awesome!
I went out for school at 6:30AM and that's when the fun began...
First two classes were English for me.
Tbh, I wasn't paying any attention to whatever we were talking about.
I was listening to my iPod the whole time.
Of course, I was able to hear what the teacher was saying (just in case).
My classmates got really loud by the end of the first class so my teacher was like "Are you gonna listen or not?" and I just blurred out "Are you sure you want the answer to that?" which was followed by a lot of laughter!
Second class - more things to be said.
As the lesson was being a real pain in the ass, my Enlgish teacher said "I know it's getting a little boring but..." but I didn't let him finish, instead I cut him with a question "A little?"
Afterwards everyone was really loud! So he raised his voice a little "Please, stop talking!" and my majesty replied with "We are asking you to do the same"
I was lucky that he didn't get mad at me.
He actually found it amusing and laughed along.
Moving on...third class - maths.
We had a subteacher since our Maths teacher's in England for 2 weeks.
I wasn't in the mood for solving maths problems...so I just left that to the teacher and listened to music.
My bestie was looking at my DYOU magazine and specifically at the poster of Ian Somerholder and Paul Wesley, then she said "This Ian has really hairy hands" and I couldn't help it but say "I'd be pulling his hairs any night" (YES, MY PERV NERVE WAS ON.)
Minutes later the maths teacher started talking louder and I couldn't hear my music so I asked my bestie "Is it just me or is this woman really annoying?" but my bestie was like "Psh, like I pay any attention to her." and continued looking though the magazine. (I LOVE HER!)
Then in the magazine was this article "Ways to convince your parents to let you go to a party" and #6 was "Surprise them with good grades - especially in maths" so my bestie showed it to me and said "Like that's ever gonna happen" which made my laugh.
Then the teacher said that there were some firefighters in the school's yard and shiz because the little kids (1-7th graders) had blah blah, and we shouldn't worry about the school being on fire and this classmate of mine went like "Ooh, what a shame" (IMAGINE IF IT WAS REALLY ON FIRE!)
Then I had two periods Spanish...which were amazing.
I wrote a few lines on me and James...but it is not safe to show them to anyone! Not even James.
I'm only showing them to my bunnie!
Okay, maybe I'll tell James but I'm not really sure right now.
Last period was that time of the week when our English teacher (we're in groups here and every group has a teacher that's responsible for it) was dealing with our "missings" from school.
I gave him a note from my doctor and he wrote down why I was absent from school last Wednesday and Thursday. All cool, but not really.
Minutes later he was asking where I was on Thursday and I was like "What? I just gave you a note from my doctor!" and he was like "You were late for my class and wasn't at all in any other classes" which really pissed me off and I just blurred everything out "I just gave you a note from my doctor that says that I needed to be home for a treatment because I was sick and you're telling I was in your class? Are you kidding me?"
Done with this one.
Moving on...minutes later I'm being asked dumb questions again!
"Where were you on 16th and 17th March?"
I really didn't remember that at first but then I remembered my problems with Mom (I haven't blogged about this, but the thing was that she didn't pay for my course books on time so I didn't get them and she lies a lot to me, so I needed time to recover.) The thing was, though, that I gave him a note written by my Mom explaining that I had family issues and couldn't attend classes. The minute I remembered, I started going off again "I gave you a note from my Mom and you signed it, then told me to remind you to write down why I wasn't in school. A week later I did remind you and you said you had done it!"
The guy really didn't have much to say but "Okay" ROFL.
So now, I'm at home...time's 2:20PM.
I'm just gonna watch CHUCK and have lunch;)
Tomorrow's a new day!
Who knows what's going to happen?
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Things between me and Justin were intense after the “club experience”. He didn’t bring it up and our conversations were casual, but extremely short and hardly any. We both avoided talking to each other and whenever our eyes met, he would look down. Was he feeling guilty? Probably. But why? I mean, we weren’t dating so it shouldn’t matter who he kissed or flirted with. Well, to him it shouldn’t. To me…that’s another story. I’ve been seeing Taylor. It turned out he studied at my school and none of us knew it. We bumped into each other a couple of times at school and would go out as friends. To be honest, I enjoyed spending time with him because he would make me laugh and forget about Justin.
Everything was going as normal as it could be for me - awkward conversations with Justin, pressure, jealousy, going out with Taylor, school and priceless times with my bestie. Until one day the most weird/awkward situation happened.
It was the break before last period and we were playing cards – Justin, Matt, my bestie and I. My bestie and I were winning, which was quite surprising because we never won against Justin and Matt, but that’s not the point. We were playing and laughing, occasionally someone would say something like ‘In your face’, when Justin shocked me, Matt, my bestie, everyone.
- Are you doing anything this afternoon, Ina? – he asked.
- No? I don’t have anything planned, anyways. Why? – I tried cooling but honestly, I was kind of excited. Was he going to ask me out on a date?
- Just asking.
And that was it. That was our entire conversation. Not a word anymore about that. WEIRD! What was all of that supposed to mean? Why would Justin care if I had anything to do in the afternoon? I swear sometimes it’s like he’s an alien and I can’t understand anything about him or anything he says.
I went straight home after school and did my homework. It was little so it took only 30 minutes to be done. As I told Justin, I had nothing planned so I decided to watch movies all afternoon and as I was getting ready for my “movie afternoon”, my mobile phone rang. I got it out of my pocket to see the name “Taylor” on it.
- Hey, Taylor. What’s up?
- Not much, wanna go out to a café or something? I’m bored. – and man, did he sound bored!
- Sure, I’m bored myself.
- Great! I mean, not that you’re bored but…
- Tay! Tay! I got it! Haha, what time?
- Would you be ready in about 10 mins?
- Sure, ba-bye now.
- Be there in 10, bye.
Taylor came in exactly 10 minutes (yeap! He was deadly punctual!) and we went out.
- So, where are we going? – Tay asked.
- To a café? – smartest answer ever! But hey, that’s me!
- Yeah yeah, but which café?
- I don’t know, how about we go to the one we first went to? We haven’t been there since – but I couldn’t finish my sentence because…
- We first went there – Taylor finished it.
- How dare you finish my sentence? – I said in an angry voice.
- Be honest! You like it! – he winked as he said it and his winking always made me laugh! – See, you’re laughing. We’re all good.
- I’ll get back at you…someday…probably…if I’m lucky enough.
- You dream, lady.
We got to the café, ordered and talked about life – school, homework, parents, everything. We were having fun until until UNTIL UNTIL UNTIL until Justin walked in the café! WAIT! He didn’t just walk in! He walked in with some girl! Hand in hand! My mind went crazy! I wanted to scream and wait, I did scream, though it was only on my mind! My head was going to explode but I had to act it cool. I mean, whatever! He can date anyone and I shouldn’t care. But who was I kidding? I cared! I hoped he wouldn’t see us with Taylor but lucky me, he did. What was worse – he started coming towards our table. “WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY ARE YOU COMING?” I so wanted to stand up, slap him and walk out like they do it in the movies.
- Aye, what’s up? – he asked totally casual which made me more furious.
- Nothing man, having fun. Won’t you introduce the lady to us? – Taylor asked and SCORE! I loved it when he said that we were having fun.
- Oh, yeah. That’s Kristen. Kristen, that’s Taylor and Ina.
- Nice to meet you, you’re a cute couple. – she said which immediately made me and Taylor laugh. – What? Did I say something wrong?
- They aren’t a couple, Kristen. – Justin said with jealousy in his voice while my mind was saying “REVENGE!” over and over again.
- No, we aren’t but thanks. Nice to meet you, too. – I said smiling like crazy. – Hey, why don’t you sit with us?
- No, no, Kristen and I have other plans. – Justin hurried to say.
- We do? – obviously Kristen knew nothing about it.
- Come on, I’m one of your best friends, Justin, I should get to know Kristen better. – I was in beast mode, yahoo!
- Yeah, I guess. – he agreed sadly and they sat down.
I talked to Kristen about girl stuff and Taylor and Justin talked about guy stuff, but I could see Justin glancing at me from time to time. I was glad for 2 reasons – I made him jealous, put him in a completely awkward situation and was spending some time with him. Wait, that’s 3 reasons. Oh, whatever.
- Tay, I just got the best idea ever! – I said excitedly.
- Tay’s litening. – he said curiously.
- Let’s have a movie afternoon. I was going to before you called.
- Awesome, but we’ll stop to buy pop-corn and other junk food, right?
- Yes yes yes! You have fun, love birds. – I said and looked at Justin and Kristen.
- Of course, bye. – Justin replied jealously…again.
Taylor and I headed home to have our movie afternoon. Before that we stopped and bought LOADS of chips, lollipops, pop-corn, ice-cream, etc. I had so much fun that afternoon. While watching a movie, Taylor would make fun of something or someone in funny voices and that would make me laugh my head off. After 3 movies, my Mom came home from work and Taylor went home because it was getting late. Nothing could ruin my happiness!...except for Justin! Not long after Taylor left, my phone rang – it was Justin.
- Hey, what’s up? – I picked up and asked.
- What’s up? You said you had no plans for the afternoon and then I see you with Taylor, not anyone but TAYLOR, in a café having fun like it’s the last freaking day on Earth! – wow! Just wow! He was angry!
- Wait, what? – I acted confused. No, I didn’t act confused, I was.
- You heard me. You first say you have no plans then I see you with Taylor. What is wrong with you?
- What is wrong with ME? What is wrong with YOU? Who are you to call me and ask why I was out with Taylor? Yeah, I had no plans but he called and we went out. – I wanted to punch Justin, punch him so hard in the face, but luckily for him we were on the phone.
- You went out? So now you’re dating? When’s your wedding? Will Justin get an invitation or will he be left out?
- Are you on crack? We’re not dating and even if we were what the f*ck does it matter to you? Just pretend like you don’t know me at school, k? You’ll make both of us a huge favor! – I said and hung up.
Happiness officially ruined! I was mad at Justin. Who gave him the right to mess up with my life? And not only he ruined my happiness, but he also made me go to bed early because I didn’t want to think about him and his childish attitude.
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A while back I posted my life story because this is my blog and I've had for a lot of time - gonna be 2 years this September. My blog is something really personal that I am willing to share with the world, so I decided to post my story. But there's been more to it lately that I couldn't have written back then.
I no longer have the weird heart beats. Doctors said those were my nerves so now I just try to keep calm at all times. If I get too angry or too emotional, my nerves start beating as fast as they could and it hurts sometimes, but that hardly happens 'cause I've learnt to control myself. Those were the good news.
The bad news are that Mom and I aren't having a healthy relationship. She lies to me a lot, especially lately. She lies to me mostly about money. Like she tells me that she'll give me money for school and next morning I wake up & as I'm about to go our for school, I ask her for money and she's like "Your grandma will give you", and I don't want to ask my grandma for money, so I have to open my savings from time to time. Mom has also stolen from me a couple of times, that's why I now keep my money locked.
Last night I watched the first 20 minutes of 'Never Say Never' (the movie) and cried my eyes&heart out. I was really emotional, yet I should be careful with that. I just want Pattie and Justin to know what they mean in my life. I want it really badly that it's becoming an unhealthy obsession of mine.
Anyways, I pray that everyone in the world is good and happy & I pray that I will get to be able to hug the two people influenced my life the most&in the most amazing way - Pattie Mallette and her awesome son Justin Drew Bieber.
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GUESS WHO'S BACK?
Nope, not samurai Jack, but me.
I'll be posting a lot of new things on here.
Being away for over 4 months was like hell.
But hey! I'm back:)
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