Dear Santa,

I know it is 11:30PM, Dec 24th and I'm a little late to write this but here I go.

I'm aware that I want a lot for Christmas. I know that my dream is too much to ask but I do want it to come true! It's the most pure thing in my life. It's innocent and untouched. It's my dream since I was a little kid. I want it to become a reality. I want it to come true. Please, help me, Santa.

And if you can't help me make my dream come true, I'd be glad if you gift the world with happiness. There has been a lot of bad things happening lately. The world needs something to cheer it up. There are too many homeless and sick people. There is too much pain in the world. So, Santa...please put a smile on as many faces as you can! Come down every chimney and make kinds and adults happy!

Lastly, if you have the time and if I've been a good girl come to fill my stocking, too. I'd be glad to see a camera, a new phone but I'd be also glowing if I get some candy!

Love,
Ina

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 Just as I thought things between me and Justin are getting more intense, everything went back to the way it once was. He acted as we were just friends and I decided to go with it. I didn't have much choice, did I?
 Weeks later, my best friend, Mia, was staying over at my place Friday and Saturday. On Friday, after school, we went to the store and bought an enormous amount of candy which we were planning to eat the same evening. I had a lot of fun that evening, we watched comedies and laughed a lot, of course. We had a blast! Little did I know Saturday night was going to turn into a nightmare for me.
 Mia and I were planning to go clubbing on Saturday night with the gang. We practically spent the whole Saturday afternoon getting ready. It took me 2 hours to pick out an outfit and another 2 hours to shower, get dressed, do my hair and put some makeup on. Around 11PM we were all set and went to this dance club downtown.
 When we arrived, our friends were already there. That, though, was nothing new. Mia and I were always taking forever to get ready and go somewhere, and that's why we always arrived late at events. Anyways, that's not the point of the story. As we walked in, I immediately spotted "the gang".
 - Heeeey, sorry for being late again - I said smiling and showing my puppy dog eyes.
 - No worries, we're used to it - Justin's best friend, Matt, laughed.
 - Looks like we aren't the last to arrive, though. Where's Justin? - Mia asked and she was right. I haven't noticed but Justin wasn't there.
 - Wrong, he went to get drinks - Matt said and then I heard another guy's voice yelling.
 - Here come the cocktails, fellas! - Justin, that was Justin's voice. I immediately turned around to see him but then...BOOM! He dropped the glasses to the ground and his mouth dropped open.
 - Justiiiin! What's wrong? - I totally freaked out! - Are you hurt? Did you manage to cut yourself? Are you okay?
 And as I was panicking my head off, the only thing Justin said was "WOW".
 - Man, are you okay? - Matt stood up and came.
 - Yeah, yeah, sorry. I'll go get new cocktails. - Justin finally spoke!
 - Nah, man, I'll go - Matt said and left.
 "WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT? Seriously!" my mind was racing. I wanted to know what was that about. Was he okay? What was wrong? Why did he do that? I didn't want him to feel uncomfortable though so I just said "I'll go help Matt" and went away. When I found him, he was just ordering the drinks.
 - Hey Matt. Need help? - I asked.
 - Yeah, thanks babygirl. - he has always called me babygirl but I didn't mind because we were pretty close, like a brother and a sister.
 - So, any idea what's wrong with Justin?
 - The problem is...there's no easy way to say this, but the problem is you. - he didn't seem sad or upset saying it, just the opposite - his eyes were glowing with happiness.
 - Me? What? And how can you be so happy if the problem is me? What have I done? - I was officially freaking out way more than when Justin dropped the drinks.
 - I mean, look at you girl. You look stunning tonight!
 - Matt! You freaked the crap out of me but thanks, that's really sweet. - I punched his arm slightly while saying that.
 Then the drinks came and we went back to our table.
 - What took you so long? - Justin asked.
 - WHOA there! Jealous much? - I could totally tell Mia was trying to piss him off.
 - You wish! - and score, Justin was, in fact, getting pissed off.
 I ignored it and we all sat down, talked, drank and had fun. Not long after a slow song came along and with the song some guy I didn't know. He came to our table and looked me right in the eyes.
 - Can I have this dance? - he asked me and held his hand.
 He was pretty good looking and cute, and I loved slow dancing. I had nothing to lose so I stood up and went on the dance floor with him.
 - Can I know your name beautiful? - ha asked, while pacing back and forth.
- Can I know yours, stranger? - I chuckled.
- You're cute when you chuckle. I'm Taylor, your turn now.
- Thanks and I'm Ina.
- Strange, I haven't heard of that name before. - he said looking all sinking in deep thoughts.
- Are you supposed to? - frankly, I was confused.
- Well, I've read a lot of ancient literature and there's no Goddess with the name Ina, but I guess you're some modern Goddess of 21st century sent on Earth to save us with love and beautifulness. Did I get it right? - he smiled the most adorable smile.
- Smooth move there, Sherlock! And as much as I'd like it, nope. I was born by my mother and raised by her, no ancient relatives and no super powers. Sorry to disappoint you.
- You can't.... - but I didn't get to hear what Taylor had to say because Justin interrupted him.
- Can I? - Justin said.
- Sure man. - Taylor said and went away.
Awkward. Really awkward. I've never seen Justin slow dance and I could have sworn Justin once said he hated slow dancing. Why would he want to dance with me to a slow song if he hated slow dancing? That was really confusing.
- What are you thinking about? - he asked.
- Oh, nothing. - I smiled.
- So, what were you two talking about before I came? - again I could have sworn there was something Justin was hiding, like he was jealous or something.
- Ancient literature. - I laughed a little to myself thinking about the compliments Taylor made.
- What? - Justin, of course, was confused.
- He complimented me saying he has read about a lot of Goddess but has never come across me, no big deal. - I smiled
 The rest of the dance we were silent and just...danced. To be honest, Justin a good slow dancer and I enjoyed dancing with him. It felt amazing having his arms around my waist. A minute later though, my moment was over because the song was over.
Everything was going great, we were having a lot of fun and there were no more awkward moments. About two hours later, though, Justin started drinking a lot. Soon enough he was drunk and started hitting on other girls. Seeing him do that really hurt me and I was on the edge of crying when Taylor came.
- Hey, what's up? - he asked.
- Nothing much, just enjoying myself - what a liar I was! I wasn't enjoying myself sitting there, watching Justin hit on every girl in the club.
- I hope I'm not pushing things too hard but can I have your phone number? I thought we can hang out sometime if you want, of course.
- Sure, that'd be awesome - I smiled.
I gave him my phone and he gave me his. Right when I saved his and looked up, I saw Justin making out with some random chick. That I couldn't stand and broke out crying.
- Hey hey hey, what did I do? - Taylor asked worried.
- No, it's nothing. I'm sorry, but I want to go home. I'll call you sometime. Deal?
- Sure, bye - he hugged me and went away.
I looked for Mia because she has been dancing for the last hour. Finally I found her and man, she freaked when she saw me!
- Ina, why are you crying? What happened, girl?
- I'd rather not talk about it, let's just go home. - I really wanted to go to sleep and forget what I saw.
- Okay, let me just get my things.
 Mia and I left the club and went straight home. None of us talked no the way back. We got to the apartment, cleaned our makeup, changed into PJs and the BIG TALK started!
- So, what is wrong? - Mia asked.
- I don't want to talk about it, Mia.
- INA! Tell me! - she insisted and I knew there was no point in refusing to tell her because she was going to get it out of me eventually.
- Okay, okay. I saw Justin making out with this chick. I'm not sure he even knew her.
- What? Why didn't you tell me at the club? I was going to roundhouse kick that jerk!
- Doesn't matter. He can do whatever he wants. It's not like we're dating or anything. - that was completely true, but still I felt really hurt.
- Practically you aren't dating, but you two can't keep doing that to yourselves. I mean, come on! You're so stupid. You obviously like each other, do something about it! - Mia was getting too excited about all of this.
- Whatever, let's just go to sleep. I'm tired and really looking forward to forgetting the whole "make out view".
- Okay, night.
- Night. - I said and immediately fell asleep.
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 It's been a week since what I called "the hug on purpose that was meant to seem not on purpose". I didn't mention anything to him about it, neither did he to me. A few times I felt awkward being around him but it all seemed back to normal again.
Waking up for school wasn't a torture to me anymore. My friends and I were having great laughs everyday. My lessons weren't actually that bad.
 It was Monday and as I remembered, my buds and I were going to the movies at 6PM. I couldn't wait for school to be over with because we were gonna see "The Last Song" and believe me, I've been waiting to go see this movie since the trailor came out!
 I got up from bed, brushed my hair and teeth, got dressed and rushed out for school as fast as I could. I was actually really excited like I knew what my day was about to turn into. Anyways, when I got to school there were just a couple of people, not from my class luckily, so I went and laid on my desk. Everything seemed so normal, yet it so wasn't.
 On a normal day, millions of things would be spinning in my mind, millions of other things would be bothering me and all I'd wanna do is go home and burry myself in bed. That morning everything seemed peaceful and beautiful like someone had cast a spell for happiness on me.
 Anyways, not long after I realized how awesome the morning was, I heard the door of the room opening and turned to see Justin standing there smiling.
 - What are you so happy about? - I said half smiling, half laughing.
 - Not gonna tell you - he said while putting his bag on his desk.
 - Aw, c'mon now.... Happiness needs to be shared if we wanna live in a better world. -
 I had NO idea how I'd come up with that but it worked.
 - It's nothing really, I just saw you laying on your desk smiling in the morning. Now your turn.
 - So you were smiling at me? - I said trying to tease him.
 - Don't avoid the subject...your turn now.
 - My turn whaaaaat?
 - Why were you smiling? - he said coming towards me.
 - I don't know, I just have this feeling that today's gonna be a great day. Plus we're going to watch the movie tonight, remember?
 - Ah, yeah... about that. I wouldn't be able to make. - hearing that made me sad and he obviously noticed because he laughed, - Haha silly. Of course I'm coming, I was just messing up with you.
 As I was about punch him a wave of classmates started coming in and we didn't get the chance to finish our conversation.
 School went by fast, I enjoyed every single one of my classes. After school I went straight home to get some rest, shower and pick my outfit for tonight.
 Now if I have to be honest, I didn't get much rest. I was so excited and hyped I couldn't stand still in one place for more than 5 minutes, so it all went like - "in front of the pc, oh boy I can't stand still, I need candy, oh dear candy I love you!, pc again, jee I need to do something, picking an outfit (2 hours)"
 Finally it was time to go out. I was wearing casual clothes, nothing fancy. Just skinnies and a top, but I felt extremely ellegant which was pretty weird but anyways I couldn't think about that then, I was too happy about watching the movie! I went and waited in front of the movie theatre.
 - Aye, you're here early - someone yelled. I turned and saw Justin.
 - Um...you're here too?
 - Yeah, but that...ghrr, I....
 - GOTCHA!! Haha, anyways, what did you do in the afternoon? - I was just trying to keep a conversation going because sitting there in silence just didn't seem much of a choice to me.
 - I slept and here we are!
 - Say whaaaaaaat? - my mouth dropped!
 - Well, what do you wanted me to do?
 - WOW! I couldn't find a place for my ass of excitement and you just slept. That's just ... WOW!
 - Haha, you're crazy.
 Then all of our friends started coming and we all went into the movie theatre.

(after the movie)

 - OH MY BUNNIES! That was the most amazing movie ever! I loved it, when are we watching it again? - I was so excited, more excited than I was before watching the movie.
 - We just watched it. - Justin said in surprise
 - I know, I know! But when are we watching it again?
 - Seems like you really liked it, huh?
 - JUSTIN, ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME? Didn't you hear me when I said it was the most amazing movie ever and I loved it?
 - Whoa, okay. Slow down! - my best friend Kate said, trying to clam me down.
 - Okay, so I guess I'll see you guys tomorrow at school?
 - Yeah, bye. - they said in one voice and started leaving, and so did I.
 As we all started walking in our directions, I was about to pull my iPod out of my pocket when someone yelled my name. I turned around and saw Justin running towards me. When he finally reached me, I gave him a stare as I didn't know what was happening, which was quite true. I had no idea what he was on to.
 - I thought I'd walk you home. It's getting dark and I wanted to stop by my uncle's place. - he sounded like he just made that up but I went with it. - So, you really loved the movie, didn't you?
 - Yes, I mean the way she tried fighting with whatever life gives her, the way she changes in the name of love, how she reunites with her father, it's amazing!
 The rest of the way we talked about random stuff like homeworks and we made predictions about what was gonna happen in class the following day.
 - I guess we're here. - he said in a sad voice when we reached my street.
 - Yeah, so...see you tomorrow?
 - Sure, goodnight - Justin smiled but didn't move.
 - I'm going now - I said trying to make him start walking away but failed. - Aren't you going to go?
 - Oh, sorry. I just... sorry. Night.
 I went up to the apartment, opened the door, told Mum how the movie was and went to bed. Of course, falling asleep took more than an hour because I couldn't stop thinking about Justin and the feelings I had for him. I coudln't stop wondering if he felt the same way. Soon enough I was in Dream Land.
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I first wrote my story in a twitlonger and lot of people said they were "inspired" and that is my aim in life...to inspire people to never ever give up and chase their dreams and happiness. So here's my story:
My real name's Ilinka but everyone knows me as Ina. I just turned 16 (Oct 26th) and I live in Bulgaria (a small country in East Europe that Justin Bieber has never heard of). I'm living with Mom and her parents (my grandparents). I've been on stage since I can remember myself which will be about when I was 4. I've been in school plays, giving speeches for new school years or the end of 7th grade (would never forget that) and so on. Everyone tells me I can sing and I love singing. I also love dancing but acting is what I would love to do for a living. And maybe things would've turned out another way for me from the way they're now. Read below to find out what I'm talking about.

My parents have been divorced for 15 years. I've seen my father 4 times and the last time he promised to buy me a bike and new jeans. Well.. I never got them. To tell you the truth, I was okay with not knowing my father. I was a kid when Mom and him divorced, so I didn't remember him and therefore I had no problem with it. But there was something far worse coming in my life....

When I was about 11 Mom got a boyfriend. Yeah, you're probably thinking 'So what?' and you're right! She needed someone by her side, though she had me and my grandparents. A guy is a guy, he brings special feelings to a woman. But that guy was NO good and I knew it.

One evening Mom didn't come home from work and I got REALLY worried. Grandma told me about her boyfriend and everything else is covered with tears. I stayed up all night crying my heart out 'cause until then it was just me and Mom against the world.

My crying over Mom not coming home from work started happening often - every 2 days or so. But then she suddenly stopped missing, she was coming home every evening and I was happy. It was me and her against the world again. We actually started going to this friend's house almost every evening and there was that guy also. I really liked him. I liked him that much that one evening I was thinking 'Ah, I wish he was my Daddy'. What happened that evening? We were walking home and he was walking with us, Mom told me to go ahead and I did as told. My curiosity took over though, so I turned and saw them kissing. I was happy and stuff, you know? They were together, my grandparents liked him a lot, too. Until one day her old boyfriend treathened that if she doesn't stop dating him, he would kill him.

Mom gave in and went back to the old boyfriend. Actually the next year we were going on vacation with him. The first night there she went to bed with him, I was little and got jealous. I started crying and she noticed it!! She knew I was crying and did nothing about it!! So I threw my pillow on the floor and my sheets also, and I started crying harder. A few minutes later her boyfriend got up from bed ANGRY!! Really angry and he started shouting. But that wasn't all of it..he was obviously so angry that he hit the ceiling and made a hole. My Mom got up and took me to the bathroom 'to wash my face from the tears'. Yeah, right! She was like 'Do u see what u're doing? Do u?' but I was still crying, so she hit me in the back really hard. That hit still has an effect on me, I get strong pains in the back sometimes. The rest of the vacation I just stayed quiet. I thought it was the best way..and it was.

Next year..going on vacation again! Mom told me I can get my best friend with me and that kinda made me feel secure so I did. Everything was OK, but one night Mom and her boyfriend asked us if we wanted to go to a club with them. I wasn't ok with the idea, but my bestie got excited and I couldn't disapoint her, so I said 'yes'. We went, they were playing that awful music we both hated (me and my bestie) so we wouldn't dance. My Mom got drunk, came to me and started dragging me on the dancefloor, while saying 'Come up and dance or else he wouldn't be happy.' The best part of it was when she started digging her fingernails in my hands. I couldn't stand the pain anymore and was crying like hell so I asked her boyfriend if my bestie and I could go back to the hotel and he let us. Another of my "cry your heart out" all nighters.

Nothing much happened the next year. I guess I grew up enough to not let her abuse me anymore. But I lost my faith in God 'cause "if he existed, he wouldn't have let that happen to me" or at least that was what I was thinking.

I became close with this guy who was miles away from me in Cali. He helped me through a lot but then Jan 30, 2009 he died. I started listening to metal thinking there was nothing left of my life. I hated God that I actually stopped believing he was real. I read all those satanic stuff and even joint this organization which wasn't the smartest thing I've done.

Everything seemed more of a Hell then a childhood. But 2010 brought me joy, love, faith - everything I've ever lost. 

I started hearing the name Justin Bieber everywhere and was like "What's so special about this guy? Duh, I've of a lot of singers!". One day I got home, checked my email, saw one from twitter and opened my account (I had it but didn't use it). A wave of Beliebers blew me away so I decided to check his music out. I played "Love Me" and it made me smile. A single song made me smile.... and that hadn't happened for years back then! I checked a few more songs and felt a whole lot better.

A month later I read Justin's story and it inspired me to start chasing my dream again. Then I read his Mom's story and everything started making sense again. I started believing in God again, I got my life back. Everything was better. Thanks to Justin and Pattie I believe, I love, I laugh, I help, I smile, I dream! I'm not afraid to be myself, to tell the world who I am. I'm not afraid to tell them who I want to be and what I want to do. 

I also wanna give credit to Christian and Caitlin Beadles. They're great inspirations too! Caitlin's accident made me cry and got me thinking...so thanks to her I now pray every night before bed, I treat everyone the way they deserve to be treated - with no hate, just love! Miley Cyrus also has a special place in my heart!

From all the Hell in the past few years I got anger issues that I'm trying really hard to put down and I'm slowly improving at it. Every day I wake up knowing that I don't feel like the other kids around me because I have these weird beats ( at first we thought it's my heart, but my test results were good, so we don't know what it is from ) and they are constant. But all the bad memories I've left in my past and when I think of them now I smile. I've been through this for a reason that only God knows. I've forgiven my Mom and I'm trying to straighen things up between us. It's still hard 'cause from all those years I got anger issues but I've learnt to control them. 

DREAMS COME TRUE and everything happens for a purpose! Stay strong.. draw some rainbows:) GOD IS GOOD!

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 I've been in my own little circle of heart trouble... I mean I think I'm in love with this guy but then again, the whole worlds stands between us & despite the facts I know I will, I want to, I will make everything in my power to find him, find his heart, find his love.
 We say 'I love you' to each other not a lot but in the same time a lot... jee, I can't even explain it. And I haven't thought about it this way but it's been bugging me for a week now. I just don't know what to do!!
 We've never met and yet he's the sweetest guy I know, and a kind of guy I need. You know, the kind of guy that will kiss you in the rain, hold you, tell you you're beautiful even if you're wearing sweatpants and have no makeup on... and it just feels so right to love him.
 I'm taking this huge exam, which has 3 stages (an essay, a test + another essay, interview) and if I take it I'd go live in the USA or UK for an year or two, and I'd be living my dream! First, I thought I was doing it for myself, you know, to make my dream a reality but now I think I'm doing for another reason. I think I'm doing it for him. I mean, I've never met the guy but GRR, IDK!! And still, if I get picked and go, I'm not gonna see him so I guess I'm doing to feel closer to him? Once again - I DON'T KNOW.
 I'm so confused and I've never ever ever felt this way and it might be just some teenage crush...but it's bugging me now and I feel in my throat, I feel it my stomach, I feel it in my head, my heart, my feet, my EVERYWHERE!
 I love the guy, I do...but I'm just not sure what all that means. People say if it's love, you'll know it...and as stupid as it sounds, I feel like I do love him so so so much for real, and as he's the one and stuff but I just don't know. And maybe if I hesitate I should just let it go? 'Cause, you know, hesitation is bad, right? AH!
 & sometimes I feel like I'm annoying him but then again, I KNOW I'M NOT!! and that kinda kills me -.-
 I don't wanna tell him 'cause it would take our relationship to a whole weird level and if I ever tell him it would be FACE TO FACE. I'll do anything to meet him, even if I have to ditch my dream to become an actress/singer&be donating a lot of my money to charities...even if I have to go to Law school and bust my ass off studying, just to meet him. But then, he might find someone else while I study...jee, I should stop writing! I'm just confused as heck and I just need somebody, yeah I meant him...and I'm gonna stop writing now.
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 I'm not going to publish my story, it's on the website and if you wanna know it, go read it. I'm gonna write about the reasons I made the website for.

 How and why I made the website?
 I wasn't able to go through all the crap in my life at first...but then again I was young. Back at the time I'd never had to put up with that much pain, therefore I didn't know how to handle the situation. When my life changed this summer I was blessed and I realised that if I wanna receive, I gotta give. You know, taking is good but giving is much better! To know that you are making someone happy, to know that you are making a difference in someone's life...it inspires not only the others, but you as well.
 I wanted to make a change and there it was. The idea came to my mind one day when a few people read my lifestory and called me their inspiration. They were all like "After reading your story I appriciate the things I have more" or "You are such an inspiration to me" and some even cried while reading it. It was great reading all the nice messages, I got a warm feeling and it was amazing.
 I have always wanted to contribute for the happiness of others. I've wanted it since I was little but then I had my "dark years" (as I call 'em sometimes) and forgot about the important things, i.e. love, forgiveness, caring, etc. Summer 2010 brough all those back to me, and most imporatnt brought my faith back, and I knew how to make a difference in people's lives. I asked Kirsty (a friend of mine) if she wanted to run the website with me, she said yes and next thing you know the website was UP & RUNNING. We posted our stories and starting spreading the word, then Amen joined us.
 Off topic: Kirsty and Amen are 2 amazing girls who I am really happy to have as friends in my life, I appriciate all the things they've done for me and truly love them!

 But what does the website do?
 Our aim is to help people, inspire them to believe in God, themselves and their dreams. Nowadays, teenagers tend to be rebellious, to have no faith or to simply don't care and disrespect themselves. We wanna change that! We made the website for Beliebers, but then again we'd be glad to help anyone.
 We can't help you meet Justin or get noticed by him. Of course, we can give it a try but probably would not succeed, #neversaynever though. A lot of the Beliebers we know have had a rough childhood, problems, etc. We wanna brighten up their day, show them that it is important to care about and appriciate all you got. I, myself, have had a lot of hard times and I still do but that is no readong for me to give up fighting for what I believe in or for what I dream about.
 Believe, Love, Care and you will be happy!
 God is good to those who give, so give for good, rejoice and live!

 What stories do we post on the website?
 The website was firstly made so inspiring stories would be posted on it. And we do post these! Stories about how you have had problems but never gave up on pushing through:) Then I kept having those ideas and couldn't stop them coming to my mind. We've posted 6-year-old Jordan's story which is truly inspiring! I suggest everyone go read it and help. We're gonna post Hayley's story, her dream came true and we're happy about that! We also post stories about Beliebers donating money to charity and last, but not least there's gonna be a special page about @JustinCrew who help people meet Justin. I also want to make a page called "Bieber experience" and post stories about Beliebers living out their dream to meet Justin. I wanna get the stories from www.bieberexperience.tumblr.com but am still waiting for its owner to accept.


 There's too many bad shit in this world (as Landon Carter said in "A Walk To Remember") but that is no good reason for people to stop believing or lose hope
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