Just a day like any other.
 I woke up without feeling any desire to go to school. But I told myself that was what life is and I had to stop complaining and struggle. So I got dressed quickly, brushed my teeth, hair and stormed out of the apartment.
 I went to school early and since there was no one but me in the room I lied down on a desk and started thinking. More like having a conversation with your mind.
 -Wouldn't it be easy if you just go ahead and tell the guy how you feel about him? You've been fighting this feeling for too long and yet you've always told youself feelings shouldn't be fought against.
 -Yeah, but what will happen if I just go up to him and tell him. Plus, what should I tell him? "I like you"? And smile idiotically? That's not gonna work.
 -You know I didn't mean that.
 -I knew, but I don't have the guts to go and tell him I've been falling for him for over an year and he wasn't there to catch me.
 -You've dealt with far worse things. You've made quite hard desicions and you never complained once about that.
 -I know that too. And what about our friendship? What if he rejects me? I mean, if I tell him and he doesn't feel the same, then how would I ever be able to look him in the eyes again?
 -Oh c'mon, you know he feels the same way. Nothing can go wrong.
 -And what if he doesn't? I can't be 100% sure.
 -But you're not blind. Observe. Pay close attention to what he does, how he treats you, the way he looks at you and you'll see the truth that lies behind those eyes of his. Every detail matters.
 Just when I was about to say something to my mind, I heard the door of the room open and stood up. There he was. The guy I've been failing to get out of my mind for so long. He was wearing jeans and a T-shirt, his hair falling perfectly in place. The moment he stepped in, he smiled and I felt like the Sun just came in that room.
 -Hey. What 'cha doing here so early?- he said.
 -Oh, well.. I was bored when I woke up, so I decided to come around.- I said sounding not so sure about I was saying.
 -Ahah, yeah. I bet you wanted to see me.- he said, doing this thing with his hair that was driving me crazy.
 I couldn't do anything else but smile and nod. I was hypnotized.
 -Are you....okay?
 -Yeah, I'm perfectly fine.- I rolled my eyes like it was nothing, yet it was breaking my heart.
 The rest of the day wasn't any weird like that. Everything was normal. I figured that my mind was playing tricks on me and there were no details, no truth lying behind some gorgeous eyes and no boy that's sharing my feelings. Okay, maybe I was wrong because when I went to my last class, he started teasing me.
 -Kiddo, you avoiding me or something?
 -Don't call me kiddo!- I hated it when he called me that so I punched his hand with mine. All I expected to happen was nothing but Justin grabbed my hands and pulled me closer to him.
 -You wanna fight about that?- what a teaser I swear!
 -Like I don't know I'm gonna beat ya!- but I guess I was a better teaser.
 I don't really remember anything else, the next thing I remeber was that he'd spinned me around, still holding my hands so that my back faced his stomach. I was much closer to him, like he was hugging me. Actually he was, he lied his head on my shoulder and just stood there not saying a thing. I didn't know what I should do but I wanted to turn around and when I was about to, the teacher came in and ruined the moment.
 After school I went straight home. That night I thought a lot. Maybe, after all, my mind was right and there was something I wasn't paying attention to all that time.
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